I’m sitting still silently. My eyes are in a daze and I’m jiggling my legs without knowing what I’m thinking. Am I just getting hurt more as I get close to you? Even though my heart hurts, I still want you. Your brightness makes me smile, so it hurts me more. As I always have been, I’m in an agony of finding answer how I can be loved by you. You are so new to me that I cannot even think of my silly tactics. I’m scared stiff. Am I dreaming an impossible dream? I’ve been always telling a sadness, but now I want to sing a happiness.